Peace When I'm Confused

Thanks to everyone that has been praying for my dad. Many of you have asked how he is doing so I thought I would give a quick update. His abdominal cavity has been filling up with liquid that seeps from his liver (since the tumors are filling his liver), and that fluid creates a lot of pressure and pain. He has had to go 4 different times the past 5-6 weeks to get the fluid drained. Each time they have taken no less than 5 liters of fluid and sometimes up to 7. So just this past week he had a tube put in his stomach that he will have to wear around. This will allow him to drain the fluid at home. Initially this was really painful and he couldn't get out of bed, but thankfully he is doing a little better with it now. He still has a constant pain but it is somewhat manageable with pain medication. I thank you for your uplifting emails and thoughts and prayers. Things get tough at times, but your encouragement and faith in God pushes us to the same.

You
by Switchfoot
I find peace when
I'm confused
I find hope when
I'm let down
not in me ... me
in You
it's in you

I hope to lose myself
for good
I hope to find it in the end
not in me ... me
in You
in You
in You

Rejoice Always!

Today I was driving to work, singing along with my Shane and Shane Psalms cd and the Lord brought to mind this verse (through one of the songs)... This is the day that the Lord hath made I WILL rejoice and be glad in it. The Lord reminded me that rejoicing is an act of the WILL not a feeling. That's something that I really needed this morning. I definately need to grow in this area, too.

God has been so good to me! My life abounds with blessings! I don't always (or hardly ever) understand what he is doing or where he is leading, but I am thankful that he IS doing and leading!

Hard To Get
All I really need to know
Is if You who live in eternity
Hear the prayers of those of us who live in time
We can't see what's ahead
And we can not get free of what we've left behind
I'm reeling from these voices that keep screaming in my ears
All the words of shame and doubt blame and regret
I can't see how You're leading me unless You've led me here
Where I'm lost enough to let myself be led
And so You've been here all along I guess
It's just Your ways and You are just plain hard to get
-Rich Mullins

It's a Revolt

I think my body is totally rebelling against this early schedule! It's thinking, 'It's summer, what the HECK are we doing getting up at this hour?' Honestly I think I have to almost agree with it. LOL! So it's a battle. I'm sleepy. Want to go back to bed. :) I thought blogging for a second may help me get my mind moving, so that I will be more alert and will not fall asleep on my hour drive to work.
Alright, got to go get ready. Have a alert, unsleepy, blessed day!